Lately I just can’t focus. I’m everywhere and nowhere at the same time. I’m bored and my brain hurts and I’m tired of reason baby things. I need something to do, someone to talk to, somewhere for my brain to be. But right now baby books are just not doing it. They’re actually making me irritated. I feel like I’ve lost a friend and yet she’s still there. And yet she’s not there. And I just don’t know what to do or how to fix it or even if I know if I did something wrong. I need a friend….

So if you rotate the picture 90 degrees to the right it will be correct. But that is my ultrasound and there’s a baby in there. Maybe two. I won’t know until a little later but in still excited.

Something’s wrong and I don’t know what.

Something changing inside.

Something around my brain, searching for something different.

It’s starting to seep out.

To interfere with my relationship.

With what I want in life,

The decisions i’ve made.

I keep getting mad,

At him, at myself, at everyone.

I don’t know what’s happening to me.

I just want to yell at him and go somewhere.

But I have nowhere to go, nowhere to hide.

Nowhere to figure out what’s wrong.

I need help and I don’t know where to go….

Silence will fall. Silence will fall when the question is asked. The question that’s been in plain sight. A better translation would be silence must fall. Silence must fall when the question is asked. You already know the question Doctor. Doctor WHO?!?!

kaylacheri:

Having fire extinguishers around give people PERMISSION to just set fires! The nerve! 

So me and my husband have decided that when we get settled in Arizona we’re gonna start a family. I’m so excited. We’ve been talking about for quite some time now and finally made a decision. As for now until April I’m gong to be keeping a journal on how I feel and probably how irritating it’s gonna be to be takin prenatals. I’m gonna start taking them now because its better to start takin them when you start trying and before. So I’m going to. plus I can get into the habit of taking them before I’m pregnant and I won’t have to worry about not remembering them when I am. So. Here’s today. The first day of my ovulation/period tracking and prenatal taking days. Wish me luck. :) We’re aiming for ginger babies. :)

So my honeymoon plans may now be ruined. If walmart keeps fucking up Joe’s hours we are probably gonna have to move. And the only time we’ll have the money is the money we would have been spending on a honeymoon. So now I get to pack and prepare myself to move again. Mah. I wanted a honeymoon.

I’m in a painting mood but I can’t think of anything to paint. Ideas?

nerdvalentine:

Book Scented Candles by Assouline (via @sosupersam)

My painting of the T.A.R.D.I.S.